Taxidermy Chicks - 2013
2010. 5m:05s (Video Still)
The story of Icarus I felt I could really relate to Missing
It is interesting how the idea of flying is becoming more significant. Flying always promises to transcend current circumstances (people fly off on exotic holidays to escape the everyday). In the story of Daedalus and Icarus flying offers the possibility of escaping the island of Crete where the King keeps them trapped. Space flight escapes the earth. One escapes from gravity – from one’s immediate physical circumstances.
I question the image of me flying the X-wing round the airfield is it an image of foolish endeavour, a hopeless task filled with pathos. There is something missing in my life and the missing wing represented it, a hearing loss disability. There is absolutely nothing I can do to change it but continue to live the rest of my life with it, I will come across many barriers in life mainly because my hearing affects it. Communication will not always be smooth with everyone ‘I will always have a moments which will depicts days when I get very low and frustrated, as being deaf creates so many barriers. Overcoming challenges is part of life but deep inside it still agitates me. I will come across causing awkwardness and moments of asking to repeat what being said. Use of telephones, talking to people in noisy surroundings, dark places, being approach by someone I am not familiar with to be able to follow. . Is it an image of failing to fly or a desperate image of freedom and comforts.
Another part to ‘missing’ is it elated and joyous and playful. I am fond of my childhood and all the careless happiness it brought with no awareness of my own disability what so ever. Flying around the x wing is like a child’s play create a great sense of nostalgia of my innocent imaginative childhood, a poignant memory. These were carefree time until adulthood where I’ve now become much more aware of my disability.
2009 (Video Still, shooting a life size figure plaster cast with a .22 rifle)